Friday, January 3

 

He is feeling untethered, like a helium balloon let loose on its own, the string released from a small child’s grasp, floating not just upwards but sideways too. The wind plays a part as does a small leak.

How much longer he will remain aloft is both finite and a mystery.

Below him the small child weeps; above him the clouds stay true to form, ebbing and floating and all knowing.

He floats further still, wondering about roads taken and others left behind, about love and loss, and the length of each day.

And for the moment he is still up there thinking these lofty thoughts while slowly descending. Below him the small child stands with his arm outstretched, fingers reaching and his tears erased by a smile.

 

Tuesday, January 7

 

The children have returned to school, the parents to work, and the Island to a state of deep quiet. The time of deep winter has arrived, of the color gray with a touch of a faded yellow, of thick beards and intermittent showering.

Drive through town and park anywhere without a wait. Walk in the woods and hear only the crinkle of leaves beneath your feet. Stare out to sea — at the waves, the gulls or a distant shore. Or keep walking, in the middle of the road if you choose, past the closed shops, the darkened doorways. The Island is yours now, a nest of flannel and thick boots, of starry nights and mornings that linger.

But take care to take it all in. Silence, while heavy at times, is also fleeting.

 

Friday, January 10

 

His daughter prepares for her first Middle School dance. She considers possible outfits: a dress (no), leggings (maybe), a T-shirt (of course) but which one? There is her hair to consider too: pulled back, let loose, a hat.
 
A boy had asked her, but she politely declined, choosing to meet up with friends first, to have pizza and practice some new moves.
 
It is a stressful affair for the whole family but not an unpleasant one. The planning, however, throws her father back in time, not to a Middle School dance — he cannot recall much more than huddling against a gym wall in fear — but to dancing school. He is old but not ancient and yet there was a time when he was sent to learn to do the box step and waltz with most of his sixth grade class. The girls wore dresses and white gloves, the boys wore collared shirts and ties.
 
Mr. Johnson led them through their steps, the music filling the room from an old record player in the corner, operated by Mrs. Johnson. Sometimes partners were chosen at random by Mr. Johnson, other times the boys were forced to ask, another lesson in society from an era that now feels more black and white than Technicolor.
 
He shakes his head, smiling and grimacing in equal measure at the memory. His daughter asks what is so funny, while continuing to adjust her hair. He reaches out a hand and asks her to dance. While they move about the room, he can’t help thinking about her wedding day and the traditional father/daughter dance. Then a car beeps and she runs off into the night while he stands there with a heavy heart.
 

 

Tuesday, January 14

 

A conversation between an 11-year-old girl and a four-year-old girl, overheard while driving around the Island.

Four year old girl: Hey, you’re wearing a ring, does that mean you’re married?

11 year old girl: No, a wedding ring goes on a different finger. And I’m too young to be married.

Four year old girl: Well, I’m married.

11 year old girl: Really?

Four year old girl: Yeah, to Luke Skywalker. It was a lovely ceremony.

11 year old girl: Wow, that is something. How is it going?

Four year old girl: Well, Luke’s away a lot, on alien business.

11 year old girl: Oh, I’m sorry that must be hard.

Four year old girl: Not really. Don’t tell anyone but I like Han Solo better. We are getting married next week.

 

Friday, January 17

 

What passes for fun on a nearly deserted Island in mid-January? Perhaps watching a raven wander about the backyard with impunity, no crowds or meager souls of any kind to disturb it. He hops and flits and then cocks his head, fixing an eye on your tell-tale heart as icily as Poe once did.
 
Or maybe stop to listen at the water’s edge, to the wind and waves and the stories they carry.
 
Or touch a headstone at the cemetery you often pass. Anyone will do, like Albert C. Fernald, for example, who was born in 1870 and died in 1928 and appreciates a stranger stopping by.
 
And after you have looked, listened and touched, try out your sense of taste by chewing on your journey from here to there and back again. If any of this sounds odd, have no fear. On a dark and misty day in deep January the chance that someone will notice are nevermore.
 

 

Tuesday, January 21

 

The current impeachment proceedings takes him back to an earlier time when he was also under the threat of impeachment.

He was in sixth grade then, running for class president while also running with a band of pen thieves, sneaking in after school to pilfer his classmates’ prize pens. He won the presidency in a landslide on an agenda of absurdity: chocolate milk replacing water in the hallway fountains, three-day weekends and an hourly wage for time spent studying.

Not long after the election, his English teacher asked to speak with him in the hallway. She was his favorite teacher, had started wearing an afro wig halfway through the year and tossed structure out the window by declaring no tests or quizzes and that the entire curriculum would entail reading books on their own and then giving presentations to the class.

He was in heaven and loved her dearly for it. He wondered if she loved him too — his book presentations were amazing — and maybe she wanted to congratulate him on his big win. Instead she said, I know what you have been doing. One, it has to stop. Two, you have to confess to your classmates.

He stammered and denied everything while his teacher frowned but said nothing. Back in class she posed the question out loud: what was worse, Nixon’s actions or his lying?

Most answered, both.

He never did admit to anything nor did his teacher tell on him. He finished sixth grade still president but more embarrassed than pleased with his title. And to this day he still wonders why his teacher never told on him, knowing there must be a lesson in there somewhere, if only he could figure it out.

 

Friday, January 24

 

The benefits of small town life:

A young girl walks to the bank, a few checks in her hand. This is her first trip to a bank alone to deposit checks made out to her — one from the holidays, another from a blue ribbon entry at the Agricultural Fair. She went over the details of what to do with her father, who assured her the bank was open until 5 p.m.

She walks with excitement and determination and arrives at the bank at 4:45 p.m. But a sign on the door says it has closed early due to construction. Emboldened by frustration the young girl texts the bank president to say: “You Buttocks!”

Not long after, while she is relaying the story to her father, whom she also calls a Buttocks for being wrong about the closing time, a return text arrives from the bank president: “Come on back. I’ll let you in.”

 

Tuesday, January 28

 

He is walking through a cemetery on a gray and misty Saturday, feeling quite content when he begins to wonder when he became a man who likes this sort of thing.

He is alone — unless you count three quiet crows in the trees and a bounding chipmunk on the hillside — walking slowly among the rows so he can read the names of the departed.

Then he recalls a moment from his childhood, walking slowly in the rain, not in a cemetery but still filled with a similar feeling, as if he needed so very little to find a place of peace. He was quite young then, wandering happily alone, just as he is doing now. And yet for a moment the decades in between compress and the man he has become and the boy he once was are able to walk hand in hand.

All this, he marvels, on an otherwise unremarkable Saturday afternoon.

 

Thursday, January 30

 

They were talking about small things, a father and his tween-age daughter, about Taylor Swift’s lucky number 13, about Michael’s Jackson’s dance to Billie Jean, when the conversation shifted to bones, specifically the dad’s broken foot that was on the mend.
But how does it do that, the bone get better on its own? she asked.
I have no idea, the father said.
Well, do you know where bones come from, or my blood, and these eyes, how do they work and why do they work?
I have no idea, he said again.
And what about me? she continued. Who am I, why am I, and why do I exist at this time at this place instead of somewhere else at some other time? And what about the stars, what’s up with them, billion of years up there staring down at me every night when I try to go to sleep? This keeps me up, you know. And babies, in the stomach, don’t even get me started about that weirdness.
Wow, the father thought, rolling up his sleeves, ready to go toe to toe with the soul right there at the kitchen counter. He was proud of his daughter for her deep thoughts while at the same time he could feel a heaviness on his chest, grappling with the enormity of it all. But then the conversation turned, and as quick as a light switch they were back to Michael Jackson.
Hey Dad, I learned to moonwalk today. Want to see?
Definitely, he said, rolling down his sleeves. The philosophy of existence would have to wait for another day.

 

 

Tuesday, February 4

 

In the first week of February the shingles hang resolutely to the side of the house, the sky drifts lazily overhead, the rabbits nibble quietly at the edge of the yard, the wind rustles a bit here, a bit there, a Christmas tree lies on its side in the forest as if it got lost on the way home from a party, the horizon sails further out to sea, and a man sits outside in the dark of night pondering his fingernails which in the midst of all this quiet seem to be growing faster than ever.

 

Friday, February 7

 

Because it was gray and because it was damp it was time to visit the docks. Down there, the ducks didn’t mind the weather, nor did a large white dog sniffing the boards or a gull soaring above.
 
The mist hung thick and low making sound more mysterious. A boat appeared out of nowhere and sent its wake toward shore.
 
Collar turned up to protect a bare neck, he took it all in — the gray, the mist, the ducks and the wake — wondering when he had seen something so beautiful before.

 

Tuesday, February 11

 

The flu entered the house and dropped anchor, putting the young girl out of school and on the couch for a week. She sweated and she swore, tossed and turned and grew bored and cranky when not feverish and nauseous.

The parents took turns staying home from work as she is still young enough to need sick-bed company. It was a mountain of upheaval with moaning and groaning all around. But there were bright moments, too, like watching the new Taylor Swift documentary, snuggled together on the couch.

His daughter had been a fan for years and they had seen her live in concert once, and waited all day outside the Old Whaling in Church in Edgartown when word went around that Taylor was there for a friend’s wedding. They became buddies with the paparazzi and fellow fans, and they all cheered when Taylor arrived.

All this was terrain he never would have walked, he thought while watching the film, without his daughter leading the way. And then he thought of dance recitals and gymnastics meets, of braiding hair and having his nails painted pink. He thought of glitter and the Gilmore Girls, of tutus, roller derby and living room fashion shows. And he thought of the day she was born, when he held her in his arms for the first time and she let out a sigh and lay her head upon his chest.

Then he heard her ask: Daddy, why are you crying? And so he told her exactly why and so much more.

 

Friday, February 14

 

A young girl’s Island pen pal is nearing her 100th birthday. That separates the two writers by 88 years. They started their correspondence in the fall and since then letters come and go every few weeks. There is talk of the weather, pets, school, nail polish, snapping turtles, days long gone by and days that took place last weekend.
But this news of an upcoming 100th birthday has brought confusion to the mix.
“Why is that?” the young girl’s father asks.
“Because, if I go to the party and meet her it will change everything.”
“How so?”
“Well, it’s hard to describe. The mystery will be partly gone, you know, of who I am and who she is.”
“That does make sense,” the father says.
“But if I don’t go she might feel sad.”
“That’s possible too.”
“So what should I do?” the daughter asks.
The father thinks about this for a long while but says nothing. Turns out he doesn’t know the answer either.

 

Tuesday, February 18

 

A father and son drive along the quiet roads of February, listening to music, occasionally talking. It is comfortable and the father feels this.
 
But he also wonders if it will always be so. They talk of driver’s education, coming soon, when the seats will be switched, the father a passenger and the son steering the way. The father knows that will not be comfortable, both literally and metaphorically.
 
He wonders how others have coped with this, his own father, too, of course. He also knows the road will not always be smooth, that is what independence brings. When he was a young father someone told him the first years of parenting are exhausting physically, then comes the emotional exhaustion.
 
The father sighs and his son asks why. But before he can answer a new song begins and the son remarks on the violin taking center stage, and then all is quiet again.

 

Friday, February 21

 

On an otherwise unremarkable morning, a rabbit pauses its wild ways to look at a man who notices and kneels down with his hand outstretched. The rabbit stops and stares and wiggles its nose then runs off into the woods with a suspicious looking friend.
The hour is early and the air mostly quiet, except for a few gossipy birds gathered at a respectful distance.
The moment is brief but the man feels it deeply. He remembers the half-wild/half tame bunny the neighborhood had once called its own but that died a few years ago.
The man stands up and calls out, to the rabbit and all manner of loved ones lost, which only makes the birds fly away and the silence that follows strike deeper.
 

 

Tuesday, February 25

 

Cue the tumbleweeds. Cue too bright sunshine, empty beaches, rural roads with scarcely a car in sight unless you count the cops and road crews.

This is winter vacation week on Martha’s Vineyard.

It’s the week when just about everyone is somewhere else — or so it seems.

Hello to all our friends out there in places warm, snowy, exotic and ordinary. We see you on Instagram. We miss you. Stay safe. And come home soon.

With love, from the Islanders left behind.

 

Friday, February 28

 

In honor of Leap Year, the Notebook turns to W.H. Auden, circa 1940:

Leap Before You Look

The sense of danger must not disappear:
The way is certainly both short and steep,
However gradual it looks from here;
Look if you like, but you will have to leap.

Tough-minded men get mushy in their sleep
And break the by-laws any fool can keep;
It is not the convention but the fear
That has a tendency to disappear.

The worried efforts of the busy heap,
The dirt, the imprecision, and the beer
Produce a few smart wisecracks every year;
Laugh if you can, but you will have to leap.

The clothes that are considered right to wear
Will not be either sensible or cheap,
So long as we consent to live like sheep
And never mention those who disappear.

Much can be said for social savoir-faire,
But to rejoice when no one else is there
Is even harder than it is to weep;
No one is watching, but you have to leap.

A solitude ten thousand fathoms deep
Sustains the bed on which we lie, my dear:
Although I love you, you will have to leap;
Our dream of safety has to disappear.
 

 

 

Tuesday, March 3

 

He was thinking about the writer Gay Talese, and an anecdote he read where Talese was at a party, standing in the middle of the room but looking distant. His wife moved in close and whispered in his ear: “Stop writing.”

He thought of this while seated with his family at a restaurant. He was with them but also at the table across the way where a very old couple sat, talking quietly together. At the end of the meal, what was left of the salads and a dessert of key lime pie removed, the old man rose and walked to his wife’s side of the table. He held out his hands and the woman reached up to take them. Servers stopped to offer help but the man smiled and said, “We’ve been together nearly forever. We have the routine down.”

It took a long time for the woman to get up. A sturdy brown cane was involved and the woman remained unsteady as she slowly rose. But once on her feet she became more mobile and the couple walked out the door together, still holding hands.

The man at the table across the way, who had witnessed this quietly victorious moment, wanted to cheer them on. Instead, he wrote the moment in his head and then turned back to his own family. His wife caught his eye and smiled for of course she knew exactly what he had been doing.

 

Friday, March 6

 

While on vacation they visit the aquarium that houses Winter, the dolphin from the movie Dolphin Tale. The father and daughter have watched this movie many times, based on a real life dolphin entangled in a net whose tail is severed. A prosthetic was invented and the dolphin’s life saved.
 
And now, right in front of them swims Winter, first with no tail, moving slowly through the water, and then fitted with the prosthetic, moving more swiftly around the tank.
 
The father had no idea visiting an aquarium could be so emotionally intense, but he feels a lump rise in his throat as he holds his daughter’s hand and watches the scene. The aquarium doubles as a marine hospital, with all sorts of sea turtles, dolphins, pelicans and sea otters living there in various stages of rehabilitation. And because it has become a place of hope, children with life threatening illnesses flock there too.
 
He watches as a young child with cancer is pushed in a wheelchair to visit with Winter. The lump in his throat turns to tears when Winter swims to the edge of the pool, emerges from the water and gives the child a hug full of flippers.
 
He signs his daughter up to help with the pelican feeding. He assumes there will be a large group of children but his daughter turns out to be the only one. The volunteers take her away and he stands by the viewing window with a crowd of strangers. When his daughter emerges into the feeding pen the crowd cheers so heartily he understands they think she too has cancer.
 
He watches his daughter while she feeds the pelicans like he has never watched her before, looking so small and fragile out there. He watches the crowd too and sees tears flow from another father, mirroring his own. He watches until he can watch no more, and sits down on a nearby bench, holding his head in his hands along with the weight of parents and children everywhere.
 
Then he feels a tap on his shoulder and his daughter say, “I felt it out there, too.”
 

 

Tuesday, March 10

 

The clocks sprang ahead over the weekend which begs the question of where did the hour go? Was it merely a blip in an otherwise quiet journey of sleep or did a dream get cut short, the one where you finally turned the tables on that pesky snapping turtle who has gnawed on your subconscious for so many years.
 
Or did you lose an hour of to-dos or honey-dos, or did the soaring of a majestic red-tailed hawk go unnoticed or the lusty call of the newly emerged Pinkletinks go unheard?
 
Or maybe a beach walk took a shorter turn, a conversation with the chickens became rushed or a mental meandering had to sit sadly in the corner waiting for a full 24-hour day.
 
Or maybe, just maybe, the loss of an hour gave a sense of urgency to life and to time well spent, perhaps over a relaxed dinner of fish cakes and sausage risotto with friends while pondering the eternal questions of Billie Eilish’s lyrics and what her brother’s name is.
 
In any case, here’s to another hour of sunlight at day’s end.

 

Friday, March 13

 

The Notebook often likes to take to the backyard, to watch the chickens and rabbits wander about, to sit in the grass and stare at the trees waving in the wind or look up at the clouds and ponder shapes just as it did when very young.
 
Usually, this feels like a gratuitous time-out, taking a break from the world of humans to commune with nature and let seconds pass into minutes and, if lucky, hours.
 
But today it feels essential in this time of social distancing, when no one is safe, not even Mr. Rogers. And so take to the fields and streams, to the bookshelves at home, to the beaches, to naptime or even binge-watch time. Call it a corona-cation or something more clever. It’s in your best interests, along with everyone else’s.
 

 

Tuesday, March 17

 

As everywhere else, life on the Vineyard has taken a dramatic turn in the past week.

The Gazette is working hard to bring our readers the most accurate and up-to-date information available on the coronavirus pandemic gripping the world and affecting our own community.

Much of the Island is closed and government and public health officials are working around the clock to mobilize and prepare.

We have joined the critical community-wide effort to slow the spread of the virus by closing our office, but we remain available by telephone and by email, through our new news tip button on our home page, and via Facebook and Twitter.

We pledge to continue to cover the events as they unfold, and we commend the many people who are working to navigate this crisis, including our own dedicated staff.

As always, we welcome your suggestions and contributions.

Please stay safe.

 

 

Friday, March 20

 

Down at the water’s edge all feels normal. A few boats rock gently in the current, while gulls pass overhead, a series of silhouettes drifting effortlessly against the gray sky. There are no people, but that is also normal on the Island on a rainy day in March.
 
But of course nothing is normal now, which makes it all the more important to seek an oasis of comfort and calm. It is possible, especially outside.
 
Spring begins today. Traditionally, this is the season of rebirth and hope. A bud emerges, a flower blooms, a rabbit builds its burrow.
 
May it be so once again.
 

 

Tuesday, March 24

 

The therapy dog (they are all therapy dogs now) rolled in chicken poop and so is not much help on the snuggling front at the moment.

The carefully structured workouts with the kids have gone the way of chaos. Now they mostly consist of the father yelling and throwing balls at his children which they have to dodge. They call it the Backyard Dad Workout, and it seems the father is enjoying it too much. Mud wrestling is put on the schedule for the next day.

The teenage son is attempting a pandemic mustache, which makes him look like an out-of-work lounge singer picked up for vagrancy.

They all argue and make up and argue again - the whole family taking turns at playing the villain, peace-maker and everything in between.

They go for a drive to break the monotony, keeping the windows up and blasting the Ramones. They stop at South Beach, park on a solitary stretch of road and run to the water where they watch the waves crash onto the beach. Even the smelly dog is mesmerized.

Another day ends and they tuck themselves in for bed, calling out from room to room, “Goodnight, I love you.” If you close your eyes you can hear them, along with all the other voices out there saying the same thing deep into the night.

 

Friday, March 27

 

He finds himself reviewing moments of his life, not the places but the faces that touched him and marked particular time periods he has traveled through. He does this in the early morning, late at night, on walks in the woods.

He is not alone in this he realizes, as he receives as many messages from the past as he sends out.

It warms his heart to review his life this way with his fellow travelers, those who knew him as a boy, a teenager, a young man, a father full of gray. It settles his frazzled nerves and soothes former regrets about accomplishments not realized.

He writes this down, while seated on a bench sheltered from the wind, enjoying the warmth of an afternoon sun. He is alone, but not really, surrounded as he is by so much love. These faces are all he needs. He finally understands this now.

 

Tuesday, March 31

 

A look at the Gazette headlines says it all: Coronavirus Cases See an Uptick on Martha’s Vineyard, Construction Ban Stands, Hospital Staff Receive Training from Pandemic Expert.
But further down hope continues: Errands for the Elderly, Free Online Music Lessons, Community Heroes Keep the Island Running.
And further afield, while walking the dog or strolling alone, a wave means so much more now. So does the sight of a squirrel going about his busy day, the sound of love struck pinkletinks in the evening and the scent of new buds in spring.
Nothing is the same, except for the things that are. May they continue to anchor and uplift us in the days ahead.

 

 

Friday, April 3

 

He can’t remember what day it is anymore, they all seem like weekends or weekdays or something in between. But on one of these days, maybe it was Wednesday, he sees small chocolates on the counter and by the looks of it homemade. They appear to be dark chocolate and there is a toothpick in each one, a perfect handle of sorts to deliver them to the mouth.

He reaches for one but is stopped. “Your daughter made them special,” his wife says. “She wants us all to wait until after dinner, for a special treat.”

“What are they?” he asks.

“She melted marshmallows and then covered them in melted chocolate chips.”

He grudgingly waits until dinner, sneaking looks at the tiny morsels all day long. Finally, the family finishes dinner and his daughter presents him with one of her home-made chocolates. He takes a bite. It is crunchy. Are there nuts? he wonders. Then he tastes something else, something sour and horrible, and he realizes what day it is - April Fool’s Day - and that his chocolate is filled with pickles.

His daughter laughs until she falls on the floor and for a moment the world seems normal again, a place of foolishness and laughter and a father running outside to spit out his pickled chocolate.

But just for a moment.

 

Tuesday, April 7

 

On the first sunny day in a long while he walks to the backyard, takes off his shirt and lies down in the grass.

From there he does nothing but listen, a meditative practice he turns to whenever he remembers to. The sounds float in and out as the hum of the world arrives one note at a time.

He hears a crow cawing, leaves rustling, his neighbor talking, a dog barking, more birds singing, a car rolling by, his own breathing.

And then for a moment it all stops and there is nothing but silence. It is disconcerting, this moment of nothingness, except for the warmth of the sun on his face.

Then, from a distance, he hears the sound of a child’s laughter and the world returns, one subtle sound after another.

 

Friday, April 10

 

As per usual, the four chickens make their way home in the late afternoon. They amble slowly on their daily route through the neighborhood and surrounding woods. They claw the earth, scratching aside leaves and twigs as they look for an evening cocktail of grubs and insects.

And then they tuck themselves into their coop, just like they always do. But unlike every other night their owners forget to close the coop door.

In the morning, the man wakes and looks out the window and sees the open coop door. His heart drops. All manner of night creatures like to eat chicken. He remembers his daughter ordering them online and the two of them picking up the baby chicks at the post office. The chicks lived inside, chirping pleasantly for weeks near the kitchen table until old enough to be moved outdoors.

Not this too he fears while facing another day of confinement. How to tell his daughter he forgot to close the coop door and that all her chickens were, well ...

And then, from his window, he sees the chickens emerge from the coop — one, two, three, four — all of them intact and hungry for a new day. He lets out a celebratory cheer, the first one in weeks.

 

Tuesday, April 14

 

Like nearly everyone else, the Gazette staff works remotely now, except for a few individuals who go in periodically to take care of some essential jobs that cannot be done from home.

On Friday, the Gazette delivery person arrived to take the print papers to various locations around the Island still open for business.

While going about her rounds, she was flagged down by a member of the community. The person had made masks for the Gazette staff, complete with compartments made out of vacuum cleaner bags to remove for easy washing or replacement.

The news of these masks came on Monday morning. While outside all was gray and rainy, inside on a Zoom conference call the clouds parted and the skies were clear and beautiful.

 

Friday, April 17

 

The dog has fallen in love. He’s a little fellow, a year and a half old with curly brown fur. She’s a six-year-old white shepherd who lives across the street.

When other dogs pass, the little dog merely barks hello. But when he sees the shepherd the noises he makes echo the timeless language of love — of first crushes and moonlit walks, of prom nights and long hours waiting by the phone.

The shepherd, who had been depressed its owner said until this crush began, makes similar sounds.

Before sheltering in place began for their owners, the dogs didn’t notice each other much. But as the walks became more frequent something switched on. The owners can’t walk past each other’s home anymore; the dogs won’t budge.

And because there is no reason to fight love, in any of its shaggy forms, the owners now chat while standing six feet apart while their dogs romp about, sharing sticks and tennis balls, loping the perimeter of the yard or lying on the grass, paw to paw, jaw to jaw.

Eventually, it is time to go home again. But the dogs don’t understand and why should they? They are young and in love and isn’t that a beautiful place to be.

 

Tuesday, April 21

 

To shake things up and provide some variety, the young girl invites a friend over for dinner, to share the table virtually. The friend is given a chair, a place setting and a plate of food, even though she is only an image on the computer screen.

“May I have some water,” the friend asks politely. “And please double up on the banana peppers on my burger. I like spicy food.”

Other than the computer screen friend, the dinner is a normal one, a family seated together at the end of the day, although it is a bit quieter than usual. All the stories to tell have been shared together during the day.

Thankfully, the friend provides something new. She is such good company that she is invited to watch a movie and stay, virtually, for a sleep-over.

At the end of the evening, when the father comes in to say goodnight, it is as if he is patting two heads, his daughter’s and the computer image of her friend resting on the pillow next to her.

“Goodnight girls,” he says.

“Goodnight Dad. Goodnight back-up Dad,” they respond.

 

 

Friday, April 24

 

The family went to sleep at 11 p.m. Three hours later, they woke groggily from their beds, the dog especially confused, and made their way to the backyard. It was very cold outside but this was peak viewing time for the Lyrid meteor shower. If daytime offered little variety, sheltered in place now for over a month, at least nighttime promised a show.

They placed blankets on the trampoline and covered themselves as they lay down together to look up at the clear night sky.

It felt like a cross between fishing and fireworks, the father thought. You waited and waited for that slight tug on the line, and then as if out of nowhere, but really in deep space, a star flashed across the sky. There were small streaks, medium streaks and bold flashes. Everyone cheered, like at the fireworks, their faces tilted upwards smiling at the heavens.

The father was the first to leave, claiming he was cold and wanted to revisit the warmth of bed. But once inside, he walked up the steps to the second floor and opened the window that looked out on the backyard. From there he watched his family watch the stars. He heard the mumble of their chatter and their exclamations of awe. He heard the wind and small creatures scuttling about in the dark. He heard from his younger self and his future self too. He heard from friends and family, ghosts of the living and the dead. He heard his heart thumping and a world crying.

All that he heard and more one night while watching his family watch the stars.

 

Tuesday, April 28

 

The Notebook wakes up in a room surrounded by boxes. It is moving day.

For years the Notebook has arrived on Tuesday and Friday mornings. This week it moves to Saturday morning.

The boxes are packed and labeled: family, friends, fear of snapping turtles, ghosts, obsession with time passing, little creatures of the woods, wind blowing through the trees, waves pounding the shoreline.

There are a lot of boxes but they are not heavy. There are no desks or couches to move, no need for burly helpers or cushiony bubble wrap. That is not to say the contents are not fragile. Memories can be bruised, but there is no fear of breaking them, and there are always more to discover. All it takes is a moment to pause, to listen and to feel. Really, that is all it takes — usually in the early morning quiet, stopped by the side of the road or seated in a graveyard — to fill all of these boxes, which on Saturday morning will be unpacked and ready to go.

As for Tuesday and Friday the headlines will still take center stage, with a new look called the Broadsheet. There is no need to sign up for the Broadsheet or the Notebook’s new address. That has all been taken care of.

The Notebook gets out some tape to close one more box, this one marked Neighborhood Bunny. Then it walks out the door looking to head down the week a few days. It carries a sign that says Saturday. It puts its thumb out and in no time catches a ride from a passing sheep farmer with a bit of room in the front seat next to his pet snapping turtle.

See you soon.